This zine is a culmination of how i got myself thru/still getting myself thru things and also things that i love and things that make me happy, mostly Stevie Nicks. I hope i don’t come off as someone who has her shit together, most of this zine is me yelling at myself and it’s really difficult to follow the directions that i give to myself, like “TAKE WHAT’S YOURS” and “DON’T HIDE!” it’s very difficult and on most days i don’t follow these directions and i fail completely. But i still yell at myself because it’s necessary that i always have these things etched in me so i have something to hold on to when shit hits the fan. - Fabiola
Hey, everyone here’s a gentle reminder to please go donate to the making of this documentary about beauty standards in Korea. It’s a pretty important film (in fact, I see people here reblogging gifs from the preview constantly without knowing where it’s from) and yet they still haven’t received enough money to make it in the foreseeable future. At the very least, signal boost.
Last night I went to a non-academic lecture on the late Lisa Bufano and the artwork she made. It was really interesting and I highly recommend people look her up. Some of her work can be found on youtube and there’s a show going on until Sunday in Oshawa.
The lecture was more or less a friend and collaborator talking in depth about her work. He explained that when she was 21 she developed a staph infection and overnight she went from being an exotic dancer, relying on her abled-body as a primary source of income to becoming a bilateral below-the-knee and total finger-thumb amputee, relying on a broken medical system for support. Her friend told a story about the first time she unwrapped the bandages from her hands, against her doctors orders and she described what she saw as five opened mouths, which she would later turn into a performance piece with the same name.
She is quoted as saying
Despite my own terror and discomfort in being watched (or, maybe, because of it), I am finding that being in front of viewers as a performer with deformity can produce a magnetic tension that could be developed into strength. I attempt to channel this tension by exaggerating the mode of physical difference (for example, presenting myself on stilts).